From the photo of my smoke log, I am definitely doing better on my second day of the plan, but I gotta say I feel like I'm doing worse. I even altered the plan by increasing my Tobacoff but was irritable and craved them the worst since this quit plan even came to mind.
(above written on day 2.....following is the early morning of day 3)
This cigarette doesn't quite taste the same. Could be me reading to much into it. And yesterday's issue could have something to do with being the last day of my 3 day weekend. I did get lots of gum and candies though to help with "cravings"and I pulled out a pack of smoking withdrawal pills to see if that would help me as well. I have been thinking about future days when I don't get to smoke every hour and how I will behave. I see peoples' point in just quitting cold turkey, because it's almost as I'd I am just prolonging the misery stretching things out. In my dream world I would be like Pavlov's dogs and just enjoy life as usual until I heard the somewhat obnoxious alarm I intentionally set to tell myself that time has passed and it's okay to smoke. But I also don't want to end up waiting the rest of my life for that tune to play, you know? In my dream world, much time would pass without me even conjuring a single thought of smoking. And then when that one thought would come to mind and I saw that it had been soooooo long since my last cigarette, I would be so pleased with myself that I would forget the craving and remain smoke free.
Well I can say I am having a craving right now....perhaps I should get out my old labor app and start tracking them that way! HA! Anyways it's time to wake up JJD and I still have laundry that need attention. Please God help me through today by controlling my thoughts about future days. =) Amen.
